Yesterday, I posted a poem known as "The Queen Knight and Leviathan" , my girlfriend told me of similarities between kabbalah and my poem. A poem has many possible interpretations, even my own poem. I have come with some possible interpretations.
If you asked me, both the Queen and Leviathan had children, specifically twins, but I removed that verse.
Part of the meaning of the poem is to kill to the other you, the character, the king was originally depicted as the Sun but was in reality a shadow, only a mere reproduction or exaggeration of the Queen Knight. The King had no real existence and thus he was Maya or a shadow as shown later since the King was actually Leviathan.
The king was a mental creation of her, which is vampiring her. This also can happen in real-world relationship but is always a mental phenomenon.
Our love relationships are based on mirroring an unconscious image, especially the mother and father archetype. Probably you are mirroring the social class, your ambitions, your self steam, intelligence, your popularity, your pride, members of most couples share a similar social acceptable or have a similar socioeconomic background.
After fighting Leviathan for the last time, the illusion was broken, but this cannot be explained in the poem.
Astrology for instance claims that a person develops the inner Sun as time passes, statistics show that homosexual people as they get older their relationships have a bigger age gap than heterosexual couples. I believe that this is because there is not gender roles, social expectations, children and both are relative mature person - they tend to seek partners based primarily on person essence (Sun's light).
For me how would be the life after the poem? I imagine a powerful and proud heroine but normal woman with a very ordinary man, you may argue that is an inversion of the poem.
I would only depict two very different personalities in a way that each other is shining in a very unique way. Yet, both essences are balanced.
Some ideas I had for the poem was: the Queen left the palace to attain Enlightenment, left the palace to find real or forbidden love -a peasant-.
When comes this apocalyptic fight between the beast and the archangels is where it ends the craving for relationships, you have the independent woman by instance.
Personally I think that love has to have a nihilistic base, "with no attachment and void can only born the true love" when I was saying what I think about maintaining many relationships:
My opinion about dating many people is that it is wise to avoid doing so, except if you don't care really about relationships, when 0, 1, 2, 3 numbers are all the same, you can remain unaffected as the Lotus.
Actually you need to find yourself before being able to maintain many relationships. This is true, because usually people is fulfilling desire and greed, and you are trying to understand people while you are failing to understand the only one person that you should understand, yourself.
The Queen's name was Christa, Killing the persona, the beast or simply, the archetype, can bring this void and detachment. But also detachment have a dark side. I read Siddhartha from Hermann Hesse were the main character detached from world was involved into a superficial relationship with a woman for years
Similarly, I have this weird theory: many playboys are free from the beast, the archetypal mother, they are psychological free in this aspect, they could being the most free people are slaved by their instincts.
Now my finals thoughts are about Buddha, Buddha is a perfect being and so he doesn't trust Gods and romantic love, I would say that Buddha is just an inspirational symbol in practice since everybody may find their inner Buddha, you can distrust romantic love, or still enjoy your relationships and finding what is love for you through the void that brings detachment.
Still what I'm saying can be essentially wrong or only a possible way, since Love should be your most free expression. I am not sure if I love freedom so much since I love to break people.
I started watching Aikatsu! I am loving it more than Pretty Rhythm and pri para. It's similar to Pretty Rhythm!!!!
Ichigo reminds me when I was younger a lot, or just when I'm happy. Also is pretty funny the anime with her.
The people I really love still see that clumsy and cheerful side of me, also my girl friend.
Girl friend: Girl that I love, but friend
My rigid myself it's just a shadow to balance my personality. I'm like a balloon that needs to be rigidly attached to earth, else I would be daydreaming all the day.
I think that I keep myself grounded thanks to romantic love. Romantic love is something between the ideal and the actual reality.
@chuculate Isn't that one of buddhism tenets?
That is actually one of the Plato's ideas. But I'm certain that is true. Actually Buddhism doesn't work with this romantic idea of love, Buddha doesn't believe in gods, and if you don't believe in gods, you can't believe in romantic love. Buddhism is focused in the mind instead of the heart, opposed to the Jesus from gospels.
Try to think what could be wrong with Gods and romantic love, the worst case scenario:
Love and hate is the same, you can love God one day, but the other day you can hate it and be lost in the spiritual path.
In the case of romance, you can be seduced by the passion and then being disappointed later. You can love and live for a women or men one day, and later you would feel like if you were dying or if you were death , some people even commit suicide.
Buddhism as the only path to spiritual perfection is pretty slow alone because doesn't work directly with the feminine and masculine dynamics present in romantic love. The Adan & Eve, Yin & Yang
Buddhism is probably one of the most masculine religions of the world, I wonder what would be this religion with a female part, or female traditions including a patriarchal part.
Religions are homosexual, I'm indeed still trying to understand homosexuality too. I want to be pansexual, my girl friend & exboyfriend's feelings made me to rethink my life. This will be my project, to became pansexual, it's obvious that I haven't gained inner peace with masculinity. When I gain peace with both sides I will attain the pansexuality.
I believe that one of the keys of the Siddhartha Buddha enlightenment was his life and experimentation, he was a prince with a wife, then he was beggar. Even if denied romantic love to disciples, his life was a duality in itself.
I'm still trying to understand femininity and the the patriarchal spiritual figures as well.
Romantic love
People think that I'm obsessed with love, but I actually I'm obsessed with suffering. I need to meditate about loneliness and suffering today.
@eginmatico Why suffering?
I was attracted to people who was in pain. Some part of me want to see people happy. So I wondered a lot, why are people in pain? White has to turn grey, even if you love yourself.
I have learned that romantic love can be an obstacle to many people, many people that suffer from loneliness also suffer from romantic love. In these case, the mere existence of romantic love is bad for them because they blame romantic love when they could be improve their self-stem if romantic love doesn't even existed in the world.
When this kind of people have the luck of being in a relationship, then if relationship is over they pretty often don't manage to make the shining and the love of the relationship eternal, the truth is that the shining in romantic love comes from inside.
But even if these people are stagnated, they changed a bit and hopefully to better thanks to the romantic love.
The most important thing to be able to love is the freedom and being yourself, but that is difficult, you have to defy society and parents. Because often the people is insecure about what others think about them.
And what is worse, people don't realize that they are insecure about themselves, they don't dare to see their dark side and sit peacefully alone. If you are insecure into delve into your self, you will be also insecure to develop a deep relationship with a woman or a man.
Love is being born and dying, you have to learn how to die each day, otherwise your won't be authentic or spontaneous, you will become a photograph. Love hates rigidity, retention and masks, if there is a mask, probably that is only convenience and not love.
My perspective is pessimist, romantic love is not a goal. I believe that romantic love is not for everyone.
For me it's something cute when you receive something you can share. If I receive something expensive, I think that your are exaggerating my importance, since that is something I can not share.
Imagine a gold jewel with my name. How can I share that with someone? It is too individualized. How can I share a book of poems dedicated to me with someone? Or a Linux distribution made for me?
Well, about the latter, I have no problems as long as it is a distribution that solves the problems of others. Just have the courage to follow it after my death.
In the past, I did not used to think much about myself. I was aware that everything was me, and me was everything. All humanity was me. And I got angry when they had a lot of consideration towards me. Because when they gave me something, I wanted to employ it for something else instead of my own pleasure, and that's something they could not understand about me.
Imagine that they give me a jewel; well, then I will sell it to donate to children with cancer. And that would be my happiness. But the one who gives me the jewel, does not understand my happiness, and illogically, he would get angry.
What I value in a gift is that in that gift represents something more important than my own existence. I mean, a gift only thinking about me is not worth, because I as a person do not have much importance; one of these days I'm going to die. They are giving me dust, because I am dust.
Selfishness is death, dust. Together we are life. This is not an ideology, it's how I really feel.
